Honesty is Vulnerability is Recovery is Purpose

Running a hundred miles an hour and my brain doesnʼt sleep. Two years of anxiety and 6 months of hell. My throat closes, I canʼt speak and all I can say is why? Why now? What is my lesson? Maybe there is no lesson to learn, maybe itʼs just that Iʼm not who I thought I was called to be. Maybe itʼs time to quit! … Continue reading Honesty is Vulnerability is Recovery is Purpose

The Shame of Anxiety

There is a certain shame in anxiety, especially if you are a Christian. If God is all-powerful and Jesus is always with us, why are we entrapped in fear and anxiety and depression or any other internal mental problem we might have? We must not believe in Jesus that strongly, right? If we did, we wouldn’t have anxiety; we wouldn’t worry about things like we … Continue reading The Shame of Anxiety

Depression, Suicide, and Our World

It’s been a strange few days. After I wrote a piece about my anxiety story I was reminded of a man in ministry who took his own life recently. I remembered hearing about it, through little blips on my social media feed, but I had not paid much attention to it myself. Yes, it was sad. Yes, it was close. But it was not close enough. Or maybe it was, and I was too busy to notice and now I had written something so close to that core to be almost comedic.

After that, I took to the internet. In looking for an article about the incident, I stumbled upon what google was showing us: there is a problem, even among Pastors. Continue reading “Depression, Suicide, and Our World”